I was walking down the entire road searching for them, but couldn’t find them. I looked for them and also asked the ladies in my usual manner if they are open for pictures. Again, it was a challenge, but finally I met Kanya. When I saw her, she was just talking to an old guy.
But it seems as they couldn’t make a deal. I don’t know why, but I thought that it will be unsuccessful for me too. But somehow, it was different with me. She liked me, I could see this. She was happy to agree and we went again to the hourly hotel. I shot her stripping, I shot her naked, I filmed her taking off her cloth, I shot her pussy, I filmed her posing and then I took off my cloth and she kissed my penis. This time I stopped her before I got too excited. I put on a condom so she could blow my dick entirely and then I fucked her doggy style. It was great, but I was coming soon again. But this time, at least I was not disappointed. I had what I wanted. Happily I went home and there I was horny enough again to masturbate. I totally forgot my past and the trouble I had before I came to Pattaya.
As long I masturbated I felt good
I spent the next day masturbating on the pictures and short movies I made from Malee, Waan and Kanya. I tried to avoid coming. I was even scared to come, because I knew when I came, the bad memories from my past would come back. But as long I jerked off, I felt good. This was what I needed most -to feel good. I had the idea that whenever I felt good, my soul could heal. I could heal and maybe one day overcome my bad memories. But even if I wouldn’t heal, it would be still better to masturbate and feel good than face my depressions again. So I spent my day watching nude and porn pictures that I made by myself. Once they got boring, I downloaded new porn pictures from the internet. As also they got boring, I purchased the membership of a porn site and downloaded better pictures and movies. The site I purchased the membership of, was the same page I downloaded most of the free pictures before. It was a Thai Porn site that showed Thai ladies fucked by white males. For me, this was a new world and I was interested in discovering it.
To be continued in Fat Man in Asia – Coming in Pattay
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